ARE YOU GOOD ENOUGH?

 
You have a goal – running faster, getting that promotion, losing fat.
These goals will have obstacles. The obstacle can be a person who comes between you and your promotion, or those chocolate chip cookies that come between you and your size zero dream or those grueling tempo runs that come between you and your sub-60-10K.
 
Initially, these obstacles make you angry and frustrated.
‘Oh, that a__hole is showing off his management jargons in those presentations’
‘Oh, these cookies are such nasty little things and that b**ch is showing off her self-discipline’.
‘Oh, why do we need these tempo runs anyway, when I can just increase my distance in long runs?’
 
Then slowly the anger and frustration turn to fear and anxiety.
‘What if I cannot learn those management jargons? What if I cannot present like him? I will be doomed. I am doomed’
‘Festivals are coming. What if I cannot handle those sweets and booze? I will be doomed. I am doomed’
‘What if I fail to finish my today’s tempo run? What if the long runs don’t improve my lung capacity? I will be doomed. I am doomed’
 
Silently the fear and anxiety turns to guilt and shame.
‘I cannot learn management jargons like that ba&*$rd. I have not worked hard enough. I cannot work hard enough. I am such a loser. I am not good enough’
‘I am not disciplined like that B*&%h. I give up easily. I am such a loser. I am not good enough’
‘I cannot handle the pressure of the tempo runs. I am weak. I give up. I am such a loser. I am not good enough’
 
The guilt and shame lead to hopelessness. Hopelessness leads to helplessness. Helplessness leads to Uselessness. Sadness sets in. Depression sets in. ‘I am not good enough’- Sets in.
 
But are you ‘not good enough’?
Ask that to your dog who will come wagging its tail irrespective of your promotion or fat belly or messed up run. Ask that to your kid who would wait for your kiss irrespective of your promotion or fat belly or messed up run. Ask that to your parents who would wait for your call irrespective of your promotion or fat belly or messed up run.
 
Your promotion does not define you. Your belly does not define you. Your run does not define you.
Your genuine love, genuine care, genuine conversation, etc define you. Your genuineness defines you.
 
Being genuine does not mean being static. We were a sperm/egg, we evolved into a baby, we evolved into a kid, we evolved into an adult and we will evolve into an old/wise person. The evolution from baby to kid did not happen in 10 days. It took years. So evolve.
 
Be genuine and be better than what you were yesterday.
Read an extra page of the management book and do an extra task today.
Eat a smaller piece of chocolate chip cookie than yesterday.
Push for the tempo run by 1 meter than last tempo run.
And while you are doing this, be true to yourself. YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH. Just keep reminding yourself – ‘I am good enough’. Say out loud – ‘I am good enough’.
 
We try to calm down our inner demons by using drugs, alcohol, meditation, even endless shopping. The demons have to be understood and removed. Fighting that battle alone may not suffice. Seek help. We work out for our body by training under a coach. We seek mentors in our office to help us go higher. Why not seek mentors or counselors for improving our mental health? Reach out. Evolve.
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